I went into this year thinking that I could center in on one goal. Little did I know that doing that went against one of my own philosophies. That is, I don't believe in boxing myself in. Goals, in hindsight, are great. However, for someone like me who's a bit indecisive and all over the place, they make me feel limited.
I like being able to shift my focus. And so, here are my last and final goals that I will document for the world to see.July 2015 Goals Recap
I slacked off in July, goals-wise. I did accomplish the goal of immersing myself in Chinese culture and the entire experience of it all. However, staying connected proved to be a challenge bigger than what I had set my mind on. Internet isn't so great in China, well at least the Greater Beijing area, as I came to find. Because of that, I couldn't blog. Okay, well, that's an excuse actually. I found that two of my goals contradicted each other. If I were to immerse myself in the experience, how was I going to do that if I thought about documenting it 24/7 for a blog? I would be "experiencing" it but looking for ways to make it more entertaining and appealing for others. Which, goes against what I intend on with blogging about my life in general. This leads to my final goal in this entire "Monthly Goals" series that I love and loathe at the same time.
The Final Goals
It took me a while to post this month's goals. I was going back and forth with it. I didn't know if I just would stop this "Monthly Goals" series without a word. But, if you've read this blog for a bit now, I try to be as transparent as possible.
So even if we're almost halfway through August, I'm posting this and writing from up top.I think real, true personal blogging is dead. Not just dying, but dead. There are some blogs out there that refute my claims, but such are a rare breed of blogger. When I went into blogging again, I wanted everything to be a time capsule of my life in that moment -- as I freshly remembered the moments that had just become the past. Looking back on some of my entries, I don't know how I'm going to see everything as a time capsule if who I'm blogging for isn't for myself. So, with that, my final goals are to revive the exact motivation for blogging. This is not a lifestyle blog. This is my life in a blog.
The only reason, as I see it, that I don't blog often is because I'm always trying to figure out what content to put out there. That's not why I blog, and that's actually quite suffocating. I think, for the most part, if someone wants to read my blog they'll have to see who I am completely. From now on, this entire blog will be personal, 100%. No series. No link-ups (ahhh I know, it was hard for me to do this). If I gain a readership, cool. If not, I'm still doing this for myself. And hopefully, when that time comes that I don't think blogging is my "thing" anymore, then I can look back at this part of my life's experiences completely with a smile.
Now, hopefully, I'll blog more often about my daily life rather than trying to catch up and fit into the same mold. At any rate, thank you for sticking around! :)